grace

Recently, a friend recommended the Philip Yancey book "What's So Amazing About Grace?" My first reaction was "I've never wondered that question, will I get anything out of the book then?"

But the truth is, we don't ask that question often enough, we don't stand in awe of that gift long enough, and we don't contemplate that sacrifice deeply enough. The last few days, I've been overcome with the sense of gratitude and undeservingness (not real word, i know). I see others going through hard times and ask "why them?" followed quickly by "why not me?" or even "when me?" I am certainly not more "spiritual", more kind, more selfless, I don't read the Bible more often, I don't worry about the right things. And in truth, I haven't done anything that merits even a fraction of what I have been given...yes, I know that's the essence of grace, but still...

So I thank God everyday for my life. I thank him for bringing me to Halifax - a change that brought tears four years ago, and now brings tears again when I'm leaving for very different but also similar reasons. I've met the most wonderful friends here, their kindness and thoughfulness humbles me. Friends who help you before you ask and who pray for you before you know you need it. They inspire me to want to be better.

I thank God it is in the last 4 years that I've learned everything I know about Pediatrics, and that it's amply prepared me to help patients.

I thank God that we are expecting a new life.

And I pray that when I face those life challenging trials, I will remain thankful.