New Year

So yes, I've noticed I haven't updated in a while (9months, if you're counting), and I suspect my friends have stopped checking in. I've contemplated deleting this blog altogether, but I want to try to update more often this year.

I've been thinking that I need to be more intentional or more perhaps I mean more thoughtful in my daily life. I have loads of free evening time (thanks to sleep training that ensures my little one sleeps at 7pm and stays asleep), and I find that I waste it on any combination of the following: facebook checking, internet surfing for random deals on things I probably don't need, skincare blogs, optimum points offers, angry birds. I go to bed later than I should, wake up more tired than I need to be, and come home from work with too little enthusiasm to play with my toddler. I'd like to change that this year. I'm certainly not going to pretend that I won't do any of the aforementioned tasks anymore, but just that I'll leave a little bit of time to let my brain be reflective upon my day; upon God good graces - of which there are many, and I'm afraid I'm missing them because I don't take the time to allow myself to see it.

This isn't going to be like the experiment I tried in high school, on the advice of Oprah, to keep a daily diary of 10 things I'm grateful, and write them down every night before I go to bed. She said that it would be "LIFE CHANGING!" - ya, she said it like that! It was very convincing! I don't remember if it changed my life or not. I think 10 things a day is too much, items get diluted, less time to reflect on more poignant moments.

One thing I'd like to accomplish this year (and in all the years hereafter), is to be a less stressed person. I don't know how I came to be this way, but I won't dwell on the why, and I won't jump to the immediate reaction of blaming someone else. I'd just like to focus on how I can think differently. No easy task I predict, but perhaps this blog will help, as it is written in permanent cyberspace ink. I'd like to be a little less always-looking-for-the-worst-case-scenerio, and a little more "glass is half full." Maybe it'll be a mini self cognitive behavior therapy whereby I think of a situation and how I would normally look at it, and how I can look at it differently in light of eternity, and not in light of a real or imaginary disaster.

More writing, less gaming.
More reading, less surfing.
More seeking and building relationships, less waiting for relationships to happen to me.

See you next week!
...I hope...