Waiting

"Do not forget in the dark what God has promised you in the light"

Waiting on God...it's a hard thing.

I'm really anxious, about my sleep, and that makes it worse. I'm impatient, I want my insomnia gone now (four months, isn't that enough?). I keep thinking, "ok God, I've learned to surrender to you now, now please make me sleep better; ok God, I'm praying more, now please make me sleep better; ok God, I'm reading the bible more, I'm really thankful for what I have, I need more faith, etc..."

It's like I'm trying to find the lesson that God must want me to learn by allowing my insomnia to continue, learn it ASAP, and get back to feeling human again. But so far...nothing...yet.

I know God doesn't work like that, I know...

Here is what I do know for sure:

- God loves me.
- God has never failed me nor will he abandon me.
- God has surrounded me with love and support of family and brothers and sisters in Christ.
- God's reasons and timing are his alone.

Still...sometimes, I wish I could see a light at the end of the tunnel.